Well--
There's no news I've found about the Hep A vax that would have kept me from immunizing Elliot.
And while that helps ease my conscience, I'm still struggling with fear...my fear that he is losing his eye sight.
Today I'm waiting to talk with his optham. re: vaccination and what glasses will/might do. And I'm waiting to talk with his pediatrician about CMV, and if it's possible that it's active now, and if that might mean a change in some of his functioning.
In general, I feel like there is an elephant sitting on my chest. And I don't want to ask him to move. I want to ask him to just move further up, and finish me off, instead of smothering me, a bit at a time.
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Hey E~
Since returning to work today after 10 days off with family and my mama & the 4 kids moving...I have finally made myself catch up on bloglife! I kept putting it off until te break- where I got nothing accomplished that I had planned- but playing all day and soaking up my Nige time. I feel the anticipation for vacation FOR you. I am so happy for y'all! I am so thankful for FB for keeping me in touch though it is briefly and sporadic at times. I was blown away by your post a few pages back with changes in schedule (you working 7-2:30-yikes. Emmy I am as always amazed and inspired by you. Stop pulling those gray hairs and dye the suckers! You can never pull enough! i attempted a going gray for these 1st 19 weeks of the preg but caved last Wednesday and feel like a million bucks...and that it almost cost that; Which is why I initially stopped going around the holidays. Anyway i just wanted to say hi! and acknowledge all the trials you are surviving. imagine breathing in that salt air and know you will be there soon. Are you off in the summers? I hope so. Oliver grew up fast in the blur of photos I scanned. He is adorable and seeing him helps me remember that i will love the baby stages again. I am loving where Nige is now ..3 on June 4th.
To bed now - content that I am somewhat caught up in blogworld.
Love & miss you~L
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